Category: Youthful Indiscretion

Today I passed the very place that once formed me stronger and brighter than ever before.

Though now I’ve been away for a long time from there, I can picture vividly how it used to be.

To be sure, it was indeed the place as I knew.
But something was missing.
Deep down my heart, I knew what it was as it has been boggling my mind.
It can’t be forgettable.

When it comes to looking back how I have been, I might have tried hard to some extent.  It’s somewhere between “not bad” and “well done”, however.

While I’ve been straying, they had gone too far by now and I would never be able to fill the distance.

この世はしょーもない
自分は最もと言っても過言ではない程忌み嫌う存在であるワケだが
大抵人間なんて所詮期待して釣りが返ってくるもんじゃなく（例外ももちろんたくさんいる）
そんな世界でも嫌ったトコロで変わるワケもないだろうとわりきれてきた今日この頃

年とったもんだ

Looking back on the past days, we hadn’t taken any picture of us.

Over time, I’ve gradually accustomed myself to these giddy days

Though you aren’t supposed to owe this time, the vivid picture of the place we use to be, is holding me back.

So, let me keep and cherish it in my heart, adding an extra memory frame.

Days have passed over and over since the day you faded away.

However I can’t forget the day, shade and sunlight, color of the sky,and other details of the sight of the place we were supposed to be.

Now I got to know that something precious always conveies the true value when it’s gone.

Reflecting upon myself, I seem to put my priorities above anyone else.
Maybe all my emotions and kindnesses were (are) a just affectation; I’ve been trying so hard just to garner sympathies.

Furthermore, my pretence (be it conscious or not) of being a tragic victim in a supposedly-pessimistic world is just serving my ego.

All these aside, there is one thing for sure:
I am thankful to have met you.

The world has become dull to me, but at least I have the guts to say
“I’m happy to have met you”, even though now you are away from me.